sad suicide of Paige Chester 21 over loss of mom, reverse of Kaitlyn Nicole Elkins

'I'M SORRY, I NEED MY MUM' Heartbreaking suicide note of woman, 21, who took her own life after failing to cope with her mother’s death

Admin assistant Paige Chester spent final tragic months battling depression, inquest hears

She had previously told a family friend she wanted to be with her mother Mandy who died last November, her inquest was told.  

Read more: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-4306118/Young-woman-21-dead-home.html#ixzz4jHaEG8xL
 
in a summary she lost her mom and so at age 21 she bereaved over the loss, committed suicide

this happened in Uk, where they actually had an inquest into her suicide at age 21.

i don't think that happens in the US, at least not with adults, unless it's unclear if it was suicide or murder or accident

this is really sad.

in Survivor Season 33 Mill vs Gen x

Adam Klein mother also died, while he was on Survivor 2 days after filming ended from stage 4 lung cancer




he did win $1 million and title sole survivor.

He also has to live life at age 25 without his mom.

His mother died just two hours after Survivor season 33 winner Adam Klein returned home from filming the reality show in Fiji.

'People think it’s ‘just a smoker’s disease’ or ‘if you live healthy and don’t smoke you’re going to avoid it and it’s not your problem,' he explained. 'My mom is a perfect example of how that’s not true. Anyone can get lung cancer. My mom worked out every day and never smoked a day in her life.'

Read more: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/tvshowbiz/article-4174384/Survivor-winner-Adam-Klein-haunted-mom-s-cancer-death.html#ixzz4jHd7U7Ld

so his mother wasn't a smoker and lived a healthful lifestyle, but still got stage 4 lung cancer 3-4 months later she died after diagnosis.

Adam decision, go on Survivor, and during that 40 day challenge, he won, but as soon as he returned, within hours his mom dies. Or spend the final 40 days with his mom by her bedside.
Her mother encouraged Adam to follow his dream to be on Survivor. What a terrible sacrifice.

this suicide really hits home for me since one day it's possible my mom dies before I do, and if that happens, I'm not sure how I would cope. On the other hand if I die before she does, I'm not sure if she would continue living on.

i feel somewhat better that at least one person,  Paige Chester 21 made the decision to commit suicide after her mom's death, in the event I decide to make a similar decision. i've listen to atheists say there's no god, jesus, soul or afterlife. no day of judgment, no heaven and hell. it's all fantasy. once you're dead it's eternal oblivion. so what makes life worth living? For Paige the answer is, after the death of her mom, nothing.

not too long ago  
Kaitlyn Nicole Elkins, 23 was also a medical student who committed suicide.



her suicide letter



then her mother bereaved also committed suicide



Kaitlyn Nicole Elkins felt that non-existence is preferable to existence.

What a world we live in. Some children die young from painful cancer. Others have mothers and fathers die young on them. Sometimes whole families die in car wrecks like the Pels family, or are murdered like the Iowa Vlilisica axe murders. But also in the news are how awesome celebrities lives are, and how some teens have just had proms costing over $25k. How Michael Dell's of Dell computer children spent more than $250k on a single weekend partying as they uploaded it on social media.

During my teen years I was an evangelical christian and my church and other christians hammered home how fragile life is, how at any second, sickness and death can happen to anyone, or to your family and friends. i first learned of death from brain aneurysm from church.  that, and how at any second, Jesus can come and rapture away the Christians, and you don't want to be left on earth with all those who follow Satan.


I really hate aging, sickness, dying, death, decline of physical and mental health

In Dungeons and Dragons first edition, the cleric was my favorite class as they were actual healers. Only class that can cast healing spells. that and turn undead.

I spend my free time studying new age health, since modern medicine can only do so much.  
new age angels, new age healing and new age prayers and new age  miracles. Life's fragile at any second something truly terrible can happen like loss of mother.

redpill wrote:

not too long ago  
Kaitlyn Nicole Elkins, 23 was also a medical student who committed suicide.



her suicide letter



then her mother bereaved also committed suicide



Kaitlyn Nicole Elkins felt that non-existence is preferable to existence.

I read her mother's book a couple years ago. It's a devastating story.

Kaitlynn was everything you'd want in a daughter, friend, sister, etc. She had everything going for her. Very high functioning. Anything she wanted she went after it and got it.

Where is the disconnect?

The reader knows how the story ends. As strange as it sounds, this doesn't help you figure out the 'Why?', and its very frustrating. Her mother takes you on a bizarre journey that is bizarre in its normalcy. There are no warning signs, no symptoms, no triggers for the coming nightmare.

Her mother believes that kaitlyn's depression started in her teen years and may even go back to childhood. Really? How does she figure that? Yeah Kaitlyn said she was depressed her whole life but the reader is given no real peak behind Kaitlyn's curtain.

I believe Kaitlyn was abused as a child and it caused her to wear a 'mask' her whole life and she kept everything hidden from view. This is why she was so high functioning. She stayed busy because it kept her away from her private hell. Having said that, she didn't really show signs of abuse. She did say she knew she should've gotten help years earlier. IMO she didn't because if abuse is the cause, this would've made waves in her family.

I feel really sorry for her. She had no other escape route.

Suicide really is a selfish act. The person does not take into consideration the ripple effect that is caused by their suicide. For starters, it completely destroyed her mother. Literally. Would Kaitlyn have gone through with it had she known her mother would also kill herself a couple years later?

I just looked up some of her poems and a few of them were posted online.

Falling Into Being


You, you with the clovers in your hair, your braided sun beams.

Flowers and winged things. How you’ll never know the species of them, but you know them by their colors--their tiny reflected sunlights. You call them cousins by their hues:

this one is robin red, this one is lily white. You touch them with your bluebird eyes.

What is the final truth, then? Is it that they live, that there’s beauty in existing as you are?

Before the sun had risen, you cupped your hands around your mouth and whispered to the spiraled bud of a morning glory: why will you bloom?

No answer until the morning, and then it unfurled its petals; its greeting to the day, to a lifetime.

You sat and watched this little being bloom with the magnificence of purpose. It was beautiful in its silence, in its pride.

You gave it the honor of breathing softly, of acknowledging its vulnerability. You knew it was weaker, less protected as a softly petaled bloom than as a bud.

You saluted its courage.

And when it died in the dusk of fading lights and fading colors, you stood in reverence as you do at the funeral of a man who lived well. Shed a tear but smiled in acceptance of a gift you never intended to receive.

And by morning, you had discerned the colors of yourself. You had fallen into being.




Dandelion


You know how you lost her:
letter by letter.

The poem of her unlaced;
like a chain of dandelions you whispered to,
blew away their tiny parachutes. Early,
too early. Not even in time to meet the honey bees.
And some of them flew, found a spring.

Walk through the meadow, dear;
wonder which were yours.



Of Course

At first I wondered why the cold made me ache for you, but then I knew: because it made me feel. Made me feel my bones, my breath between them; what it takes to live, what it takes to feel my life.

I smiled into a not yet icy wind; sped along that pathway made of bricks, my toes finding all the ones that were not so set on being set. Laughing at my bare feet; no, laughing at the others' shoes. How they felt the soles of their boots and called it earth. But how you walked naked even in hotels.

And you there, at the end of my lone string of bricks, at the end of yours; you're smiling, waiting. You hadn't known where they went, just that you had to follow. But curious when you saw another's touch, saw them both swirl in knots ahead. Paused to look back down this different path, saw my hair snapping in the wind. You waited for me to get there on my own; they were my bricks.

And I could feel my bones. And I could feel my breath between them.

And our greeting words: Of course.

An interesting glimpse into her state of mind.


her self portrait is very revealing:

good work